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February 4, 2018

‘She is struggling with the concept’, by Lucy Goodwill

She is struggling with the concept of her body as a sensual object. She lifts the covers, brings her feet to meet the floor and winces as she stands. Legs laced with his now buckle as she walks, and shockwaves sparked by his touch are replaced by short-circuiting pain in her nerves.

Soft lips, coarse hair, hot skin, cool sweat, forget the pain, leave that til morning.

She makes it to the door; tries not to wake him so he won’t see her transformation. From time to time she indulges in the mythology of her beauty; an existence where physicality means something other than her suffering.

She pours the coffee that will focus her, swallows tablets that will soothe, takes a shower and embraces the heat that reaches deep into her bones. She follows the steps that will make her feel human and, symptom by symptom, she rebuilds the myth.

 

  • by Lucy Goodwill

@lucygoodwill at twitter

U.K.