As part of the ‘autoethnography’ component of our research project we have been documenting the team’s views associated with the affective and emotional aspects of their professional writing. We decided to explore this particular aspect of academic professional life, as the affective experiences of academic working life (its joys and pains) are closely bound up with successful and unsuccessful experiences of writing (acceptances of papers, completion of monographs, proposals, feedback, etc.).
Here are some of the responses to the questions we asked in the autoethnographic survey:
1) Tell me about a piece of writing you did which brought positive feelings or joy?
I am quite a synthetic thinker and I enjoy the creativity involved in researching ideas and putting them together in an argument in a new way, or developing a storyline from disparate data and viewpoints.
If I am satisfied with a piece of writing (and this might just be an email that I feel I have successfully crafted), I sometimes go back and read it over several times, enjoying the achievement of it.
I don’t feel the same level of satisfaction when I prepare and deliver an oral presentation which is too unpredictable. I feel more in control of my ideas and self-presentation when I write.
I get satisfaction and pleasure from writing, but wouldn’t say it has ever made me “really happy”. To me, writing is mainly an intellectual endeavour rather than an emotional one.
My writing process goes something like this: initial enthusiasm, leading to a first burst of work on something; getting stuck, accompanied by a conviction that this time, it will all be impossible; relief when something clicks and I see how it will be possible (this is usually when I get from ‘idea’ to ‘an actual argument’).
2) What specifically was it that caused you to be happy?
In terms of process, the satisfaction came from seeing the book as a project come together from the original seminar, through negotiating publication with a good publisher, working with contributors and co-editors, designing the book cover etc. In terms of the topic, helping a new field to come into focus.
With pen and pencil writing, I don’t usually enjoy the act as it tends to be messy and untidy.
Content gives me anger, regret and sadness, but not the act of writing itself.
Online I like writing when I do it unnoticed. I hate being rushed, and I try never to circulate drafts if I am not happy with them.
I was satisfied to recently get a chapter from my PhD published – because it had always nagged at me that I hadn’t got journal articles from it and should have done.
3) Tell me about a piece of writing that you did, the memory of which you associate with negative feelings
A piece of professional criticism which I was commissioned to write. Though I stand by the content of the piece, I don’t think I fully understood at the time how my writing was being used politically by the commissioning body and the whole thing felt very uncomfortable – but perhaps uncompromising criticism is always difficult and confrontational – not my normal style.
I wrote an article for a public media outlet. I did it with some edits from their editor who kind of ‘sexed it up’ a bit. There was a really positive response on social media about the issues I raised, with very few negative comments. Some of the negative comments however got to me. It hasn’t changed the way I write. It’s just toughened me up a bit.
I tried to write a book based on my previous big research project, but didn’t, despite spending a lot of time on bits of it – I think mostly because of other life and work stuff happening which got in the way. I was disappointed in myself – I see myself as someone who gets things done but there were a couple of years when I didn’t. I also feel that although I didn’t have an actual contract, I let down the people who had said they might publish it.
4) What irritates you most about the professional writing that you do (teaching, admin or research)?
I hate doing boring routine stuff. I think this is why assessing repeated exam answers, for example, is such an effort for me.
I found it hard being required to annotate student scripts online with feedback comments but this was really about a technology that wasn’t fit for purpose. I tend to mark when travelling or at other times when I’m not near a large screen computer and mobile technologies are fiddly for this kind of writing.
I loathe filling in templates for things like annual reviews or references etc. Wherever I can, I take the headings as guidelines for writing in a narrative way and avoid filling the boxes.
Writing abstracts is demanding. You have to know what you want to say, or have to discover it by the act of writing. I was doing one this morning for a plenary in a few months, and I don’t actually know what I want to say. I tried staring at an empty, fresh, new Word document and that didn’t work. I moved away from my computer and tried with a pen and paper. That gave a set of bullet points, but not a well-argued abstract. So a lot of wasted time – it wasn’t the right time for writing something new.
I honestly don’t think there is anything that irritates me about the writing I do.
I don’t know if anything irritates me. Technology can be annoying sometimes I suppose.
5) What do you like most about your writing?
The feeling of “flow” of being absorbed in the moment of writing so that you don’t keep track of time.
The internet has also brought a new dimension to my writing as I frequently search online while I am writing to find references, citations, perhaps read a related article, watch a video or follow a trail that informs me about a concept or aspect of my topic more deeply.
The recognition from peers if it gets it. But the best is when my writing reaches people I never expected it to reach and they value it.
What I like most about my writing is when it has an effect. For example if I review an article for a journal and my writing is useful and has an effect.
I like the process of doing it, and it’s nice for my ego when people cite the resulting text. I don’t pay that much attention now, but the first time I discovered that someone famous had cited my work, I could scarcely believe it.
I like the feeling of thoughts clunking together. I like the neatness of a well-structured piece of writing. I like finding just the right word to make a sentence work.
6) What do you think about this quote from the writer Dorothy Parker? “I hate writing, I love having written”Do you feel the same? Try to explain your answer.
Yes, I agree. Those horrible hours chained to a computer and not going out for fun, contrasted with the satisfaction of seeing something I’ve written appearing in print. But the opposite can be true too. Enjoyable mornings can pass working and making progress on an article or a chapter.
I understand what Parker means. Writers of all types often say that the process is torturous. There must therefore be all the more satisfaction in having done it, and being rewarded for all that hard work. I love having written, and in that sense I agree with Parker, but I also like writing. It seems rather indulgent not to.
I know what she means. I often hate the idea of writing, but when I’m not writing I feel edgy. When I’m writing regularly I feel much saner. Though I’m not sure I love having written either – I am often reluctant to look at things I have published.
We are finding that affect and its associations with academics’ writing is emerging quite a bit in our research data, chiming with other research that focuses on the social aspects of writing and the importance of motivation and supportive culture in which academic work can emerge (e.g. Cloutier 2015; Murray 2015).
Do the responses above correlate with your experience? If so, how? And if not, how would you respond to the questions we posed?
Cloutier, C. (2015) How I Write: An Inquiry Into the Writing Practices of Academics, Journal of Management Inquiry, DOI:
Murray, R. (2015) Writing in Social Spaces: A social processes approach to academic writing, Abingdon: Routledge.