{"id":3590,"date":"2018-05-11T22:09:04","date_gmt":"2018-05-11T22:09:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/translatingpain\/?p=3590"},"modified":"2018-08-09T19:37:05","modified_gmt":"2018-08-09T19:37:05","slug":"night-sweats-by-blair-james","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/translatingpain\/2018\/05\/11\/night-sweats-by-blair-james\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8216;NIGHT SWEATS&#8217;, by Blair James"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\">you sit in my throat like a stone in shoe\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> eyes dry as bone. bones hurt.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> why cry?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> these days that feel different but all so same.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> little belly wrenches all the time as though to be freed from something\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> tonsils i should rip them from my neck. daft neck\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> neck forever stiff\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> but why should neck feel at ease when i remain so needlessly static\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> lose my reasons every day\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> and think of new\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> you div\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> ask yourself what time it is. what day\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> become like a teddy bear.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> apples hurt my mouth but i still eat them.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> how life is unfair.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> why must i scratch my skin?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> not fair on you\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> to have everything\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> daffodils. i used to kick their heads off. weak.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> it follows me round everywhere.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"> what\u2019s the point in being alive when 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