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Its close by and ready to pounce if I try to breathe too long, if I try to twitch a muscle it will attack. I feel glued in on this bed, like a weight is pinning me down. It stayed for five long days before freeing me from its snare. Trapped nerves you are despair.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><em>by SpinalPain<\/em><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>UK<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It came to visit last week. No warning at Three am. One turn in my bed and here it is. Stealing my long breaths. Grasping the hand rail, I try to turn on my side. The red-hot cattle prod steals my spine. The pain splinters through my nerves screaming. 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