{"id":3901,"date":"2019-03-02T16:08:21","date_gmt":"2019-03-02T16:08:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/translatingpain\/?p=3901"},"modified":"2019-03-02T16:08:21","modified_gmt":"2019-03-02T16:08:21","slug":"superheroes-in-pjs-by-grae-salisbury","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/superheroes-in-pjs-by-grae-salisbury\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8216;Superheroes in PJs&#8217;, by Grae Salisbury"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">This is shocking.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I am not an object and I am not broken but<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 the pain tells me differently.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">This is chronic.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Why am I not adjusted yet?<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">It comes and goes, it\u2019s all my consciousness<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 or<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 all I want is to lie down.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">And when I come into work I lie about my days off.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">Why do I look tired? Maybe,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 that\u2019s just how I look. Maybe,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 they think I am just not very \u2018together\u2019\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">This invisible pain cannot be talked about because that will only make work relations worse-<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">because they never know how to interact with me after, but<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 my anxiety aches like the bits between my legs.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">I am not used to this.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">I am managing well and privately proud, but sometimes<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I wish they all knew.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">I guess all superheroes probably feel like this sometimes.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I bet there\u2019s a lot of us.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><em>by Grae Salisbury<\/em><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>Canada<br \/>\nInstagram:\u00a0\u00a0@jellybeancomix<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This is shocking. &nbsp; \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 I am not an object and I am not broken but \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 the pain tells me differently. &nbsp; This is chronic. \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Why am I not adjusted yet? &nbsp; It comes and goes, it\u2019s all my consciousness \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 or \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 all I want is to lie down. &nbsp; 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