{"id":3798,"date":"2018-08-06T13:31:09","date_gmt":"2018-08-06T13:31:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/translatingpain\/?p=3798"},"modified":"2018-08-06T13:31:09","modified_gmt":"2018-08-06T13:31:09","slug":"growth-by-roseclue-advanced-wizards-watercolors","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/growth-by-roseclue-advanced-wizards-watercolors\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8216;Growth?&#8217;, by @RoseClue, @ Advanced Wizards, @Watercolors,"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" fetchpriority=\"high\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/files\/2018\/07\/77DBBB2E-648B-4EE7-AC3D-536BE5F526FE.jpeg?resize=2517%2C3683\" alt=\"a watercolor image of a tree with five branches ,shaped like a hand, each finger one color of the rainbow, but after a certain point in the trunk each color becomes muddled together in a confusing mess. A caption in red block letters that \u201cbleed\u201d into the background like scratches reads, \u201cfrom pain comes growth\u201d with a question mark.\" width=\"2517\" height=\"3683\" \/><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">Where does it even start?\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 18pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 18pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">How can I tell each apart?<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 18pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 18pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">Where does it even end?<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 18pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 18pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">Why isn\u2019t my body my friend?\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 18pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><span style=\"font-size: 18pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"><em>by @RoseClue (twitter, instagram), @ Advanced Wizards, @Watercolors (facebook)<\/em><\/span><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt\">USA<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Where does it even start?\u00a0 I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know How can I tell each apart? I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know Where does it even end? I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know Why isn\u2019t my body my friend?\u00a0 I don\u2019t know, I don\u2019t know,&hellip; <a class=\"continue\" href=\"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/growth-by-roseclue-advanced-wizards-watercolors\/\">Continue Reading<span> &#8216;Growth?&#8217;, by @RoseClue, @ Advanced Wizards, @Watercolors,<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":36,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"site-sidebar-layout":"default","site-content-layout":"","ast-site-content-layout":"default","site-content-style":"default","site-sidebar-style":"default","ast-global-header-display":"","ast-banner-title-visibility":"","ast-main-header-display":"","ast-hfb-above-header-display":"","ast-hfb-below-header-display":"","ast-hfb-mobile-header-display":"","site-post-title":"","ast-breadcrumbs-content":"","ast-featured-img":"","footer-sml-layout":"","ast-disable-related-posts":"","theme-transparent-header-meta":"","adv-header-id-meta":"","stick-header-meta":"","header-above-stick-meta":"","header-main-stick-meta":"","header-below-stick-meta":"","astra-migrate-meta-layouts":"default","ast-page-background-enabled":"default","ast-page-background-meta":{"desktop":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-4)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"tablet":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"mobile":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""}},"ast-content-background-meta":{"desktop":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"tablet":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"mobile":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""}},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[16],"tags":[28,63,74,76,86],"class_list":["post-3798","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-anthology","tag-body","tag-fear-distress-grief","tag-hope","tag-identity","tag-loss"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p9mjRE-Zg","jetpack_likes_enabled":false,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":2963,"url":"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/the-diagnosis-by-roseanne-watt\/","url_meta":{"origin":3798,"position":0},"title":"&#8216;The Diagnosis&#8217;, by Roseanne Watt","author":"strongs","date":"March 29, 2018","format":false,"excerpt":"A rookery, long abandoned now,\u00a0 had been built inside my body. 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