{"id":3699,"date":"2018-06-22T09:00:34","date_gmt":"2018-06-22T09:00:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/translatingpain\/?p=3699"},"modified":"2018-06-22T09:00:34","modified_gmt":"2018-06-22T09:00:34","slug":"central-pain-syndrome-naming-the-beast-by-doug-sharp","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/central-pain-syndrome-naming-the-beast-by-doug-sharp\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8216;CENTRAL PAIN SYNDROME: NAMING THE BEAST&#8217;, by Doug Sharp"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">body hangs off me like a scab,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">torture-punished brain a scared little animal peering out of skull,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">rats gnaw at the base of psyche,\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">lick rusty razor blade,\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">electric flame slice belly,\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">fiery metal spears dangle from gut,\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">The great beast paws idly at my entrails,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">sparking shark teeth chew slowly up leg,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">thrust scorching metal skewers slowly down meat of thighs,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">pack burning steel wool into hollow shrieking calves,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">porcupine worms writhe inside veins forever chewing out of meat and skin,\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">skate barefoot across field of burning blades,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">walk face first into blazing buzz saw,\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">again,\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">again,\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">again,<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">I can feel the flames\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">but I can\u2019t see the light.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<figure style=\"width: 2304px\" class=\"wp-caption alignnone\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" fetchpriority=\"high\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/files\/2018\/05\/droogstorm-bearded.jpg?resize=2304%2C3072\" alt=\"\" width=\"2304\" height=\"3072\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-caption-text\"><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">The image shows my face looking upwards with beams of pain shooting from my eyes. 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My face is neutral&#8211;hiding my pain.<\/span><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<ul>\n<li><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"><em>by Doug Sharp<\/em><\/span><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">Youtube:\u00a0 <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=h54Q5AQJ-Ss\">Central Pain Syndrome &#8220;Message from Hell #1: How Are You?<\/a>&#8220;<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">Twitter:\u00a0<a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/dougdroogsharp\">@DougDroogSharp<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">U.S.A.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>body hangs off me like a scab, torture-punished brain a scared little animal peering out of skull, rats gnaw at the base of psyche,\u00a0 lick rusty razor blade,\u00a0 electric flame slice belly,\u00a0 fiery metal spears dangle from gut,\u00a0 The great beast paws idly at my entrails, sparking shark teeth chew slowly up leg, thrust scorching&hellip; 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