{"id":3053,"date":"2018-04-23T09:00:28","date_gmt":"2018-04-23T09:00:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/translatingpain\/?p=3053"},"modified":"2018-04-23T09:00:28","modified_gmt":"2018-04-23T09:00:28","slug":"pain-and-pain-by-m-s-y","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/pain-and-pain-by-m-s-y\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8216;pain and Pain&#8217;, by M-S-Y"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">The difference between lowercase-p, pain, and uppercase-P, Pain, is huge.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">Bigger than just a shift-key should make it.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">The difference between \u201cYeah, let\u2019s go on a hike today!\u201d and \u201cI can\u2019t walk today.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">The difference between pain that ends, and\u00a0<em>Pain<\/em>\u00a0that just backs off for a while.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">The difference between the morning pills and the afternoon pills and the evening pills and the night pills and the pills and the pills and the injections and the appointments and the\u00a0<em>Pain<\/em>.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">The differences between the screaming in your head and the screaming locked in the gilded cage in your throat, and the knowledge that it is a bird that will never die, it will just remain in you, like a bird throwing itself against a window pane.Yes, pain and\u00a0<em>Pain<\/em>\u00a0are so completely different, I can\u2019t believe they\u2019re even spelled that same way.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"><em>by\u00a0M-S-Y<\/em><\/span><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">United States<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The difference between lowercase-p, pain, and uppercase-P, Pain, is huge. Bigger than just a shift-key should make it. The difference between \u201cYeah, let\u2019s go on a hike today!\u201d and \u201cI can\u2019t walk today.\u201d The difference between pain that ends, and\u00a0Pain\u00a0that just backs off for a while. 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