{"id":2954,"date":"2018-03-29T22:31:04","date_gmt":"2018-03-29T22:31:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/translatingpain\/?p=2954"},"modified":"2018-03-29T22:31:04","modified_gmt":"2018-03-29T22:31:04","slug":"the-ache-by-kitty-frilling","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/the-ache-by-kitty-frilling\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8216;The Ache&#8217;, by Kitty Frilling"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">It wouldn\u2019t be fair to say the ache starts<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> every morning as I wake.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Or truthfully that I wake at all,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> more I become conscious\u2026 of the pain.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> The fire started small and young.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Fickle flickering up my spine.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Across my shoulders like a seasoned log,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> spreading further, faster as I age.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> It took hold.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> It ravaged me, left me weak and wincing.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Scared to stretch my body,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> as if it would elongate my pain.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> The ache doesn\u2019t care how I adjust.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Turn this hip, rest this hand, lift this leg.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> To chase it out of one limb just moves it,\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> across the map of my body.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> It doesn\u2019t listen to the pills.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Signals sent to block it in my brain.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> It weaves its way round them,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> conniving and wheedling itself into my synapses.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"><em>by Kitty Frilling<\/em><\/span><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">Author website:\u00a0<a href=\"http:\/\/www.kittyfrilling.co.uk\">www.kittyfrilling.co.uk<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">United Kingdom<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It wouldn\u2019t be fair to say the ache starts every morning as I wake. 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