{"id":2944,"date":"2018-03-29T22:11:31","date_gmt":"2018-03-29T22:11:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/translatingpain\/?p=2944"},"modified":"2018-03-29T22:11:31","modified_gmt":"2018-03-29T22:11:31","slug":"a-double-etheree-on-living-with-m-e","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/a-double-etheree-on-living-with-m-e\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8216;A Double Etheree on Living with M.E.&#8217;, by Linda Cosgriff"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">A<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> man is<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> ill. Whispered<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> recollections<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> of what he once was<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> are all that sustain him.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> He has no hope. His aching<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> visions of what should have been kill<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> comfort. What could have been is a lie.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> He has no hope. He has no future. He<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> has only now. Life took revenge for a<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> life too well lived. He was a man out<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> of time. Now, there is nothing but<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> time. Resilient, he bears<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> it. He will not die. 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