{"id":2761,"date":"2018-03-12T09:00:34","date_gmt":"2018-03-12T09:00:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/translatingpain\/?p=2761"},"modified":"2018-03-12T09:00:34","modified_gmt":"2018-03-12T09:00:34","slug":"fibromyalgia","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/fibromyalgia\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8216;Fibromyalgia&#8217;, by Zara Carpenter"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">Fibromyalgia\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> My body drinks in the harsh cold of winter\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Setting my bones on fire\u2028<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Hands ball up into blotched white fists\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Suddenly and viciously\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> A message travels down\u2028\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> My over over sensitive nerves\u2028<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Sending fingers shooting out\u2028<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Dead straight\u2028<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Rigor morticed with pain<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> \u2028Liquid churns hot in my spasming bowels\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Limp sprinting to the bathroom\u2028<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> I watch through open legs\u2028<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> As blood drips into the toilet bowl\u2028<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> A crimson red rose blooms\u2028<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Then slowly dissolves\u2028<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> I am a clockwork toy<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> \u2028Wound too tight\u2028<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> The obsessions I tidied away\u2028<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Are coming out of their boxes\u2028<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Quicker than a child\u2019s presents at Christmas<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"><em>by\u00a0Zara Carpenter<\/em><\/span><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.zaracarpenter.com\">www.zaracarpenter.com<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">United Kingdom<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Fibromyalgia\u00a0 My body drinks in the harsh cold of winter\u00a0 Setting my bones on fire\u2028 Hands ball up into blotched white fists\u00a0 Suddenly and viciously\u00a0 A message travels down\u2028\u00a0 My over over sensitive nerves\u2028 Sending fingers shooting out\u2028 Dead straight\u2028 Rigor morticed with pain \u2028Liquid churns hot in my spasming bowels\u00a0 Limp sprinting to the&hellip; 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