{"id":2739,"date":"2018-03-04T09:00:47","date_gmt":"2018-03-04T09:00:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/translatingpain\/?p=2739"},"modified":"2018-03-04T09:00:47","modified_gmt":"2018-03-04T09:00:47","slug":"a-hidden-truth","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/a-hidden-truth\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8216;A Hidden Truth&#8217;, by Amy Hunter"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">After struggling with ear problems all my life and having two surgeries for Cholesteatoma in 2008 and 2015, a recent flare up has caused months of pain that is unexplained and has baffled my consultants. Having this on top of my original ear problems and cluster headaches sometimes the pain can make days difficult. This is just a glimpse into what happens on a daily basis.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Me. Pain. Intertwined.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Days. Coping. Bad days. Flare ups.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> People. Confused. Understanding Difficult.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Hidden disease.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Medicine. No effect. Doctors. Befuddled.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Decisions. Hospitals. Waiting. Pain.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Hidden disease.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Explaining. Constant. Tiring.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Symptoms. Unexplained. Words. Lost.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Hidden disease.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Tired. Exasperated. Threshold. Pushed. Sometimes. Beyond Limits.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Tired. Sore. Always. Hidden Truth.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Tired. Battle on.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Hidden disease.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> People. Unconditional Love.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Caring. Trying to understand.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Hidden disease.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Pain. Intertwined.\u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Always there.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Nothing seen.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Hidden disease.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> This is me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"><em>by\u00a0Amy Hunter<\/em><\/span><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">United Kingdom<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>After struggling with ear problems all my life and having two surgeries for Cholesteatoma in 2008 and 2015, a recent flare up has caused months of pain that is unexplained and has baffled my consultants. Having this on top of my original ear problems and cluster headaches sometimes the pain can make days difficult. This&hellip; <a class=\"continue\" href=\"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/a-hidden-truth\/\">Continue Reading<span> &#8216;A Hidden Truth&#8217;, by Amy Hunter<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":36,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"site-sidebar-layout":"default","site-content-layout":"","ast-site-content-layout":"default","site-content-style":"default","site-sidebar-style":"default","ast-global-header-display":"","ast-banner-title-visibility":"","ast-main-header-display":"","ast-hfb-above-header-display":"","ast-hfb-below-header-display":"","ast-hfb-mobile-header-display":"","site-post-title":"","ast-breadcrumbs-content":"","ast-featured-img":"","footer-sml-layout":"","ast-disable-related-posts":"","theme-transparent-header-meta":"","adv-header-id-meta":"","stick-header-meta":"","header-above-stick-meta":"","header-main-stick-meta":"","header-below-stick-meta":"","astra-migrate-meta-layouts":"default","ast-page-background-enabled":"default","ast-page-background-meta":{"desktop":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-4)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"tablet":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"mobile":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""}},"ast-content-background-meta":{"desktop":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"tablet":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"mobile":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""}},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[16],"tags":[28,74,76,80,90,120],"class_list":["post-2739","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-anthology","tag-body","tag-hope","tag-identity","tag-invisibility","tag-medical","tag-waiting"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p9mjRE-Ib","jetpack_likes_enabled":false,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":3692,"url":"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/wings-by-paula-knight\/","url_meta":{"origin":2739,"position":0},"title":"&#8216;Wings&#8217;, by Paula Knight","author":"strongs","date":"June 15, 2018","format":false,"excerpt":"I drew this while lying down in bed during a ME\/CFS relapse and Fibromyalgia flare-up that has seen me housebound and sometimes bedridden. 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