{"id":2688,"date":"2018-02-23T12:00:37","date_gmt":"2018-02-23T12:00:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/translatingpain\/?p=2688"},"modified":"2018-02-23T12:00:37","modified_gmt":"2018-02-23T12:00:37","slug":"2688-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/2688-2\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8216;Swans and Swallows&#8217;, by\u00a0Mary Marie Dixon"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">(After Tennyson\u2019s \u2018The Dying Swan\u2019)<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> In this wasting plain a<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Wedge of swans<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Tangle in water<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> So deep her eyes<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> In the gyring ferment<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> I am impotent<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Warming blankets only burn<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> The stab<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> I cannot touch her<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> I cannot reach her<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> To this berth I cannot go<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> She writhes<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> White feathers<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Drop around her bed<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Swans wedge her in again<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Swimming violently<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Their bowing heads<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Surface again<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> This churning of webbed feet<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> In water I cannot enter nor fathom<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> There is no present no past no future<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Only some existence that is now and not now<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> She would wish to die<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> I would wish to die<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Explicitly she does not wish to die<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> The room is swirling with the rotation of swans<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Specters with no beauty<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Shape-shifters leading to another world<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> No end no beginning<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> \u00a0<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> Still outside we hear<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> In thunder birds<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"> A swirling of swallows<\/span><\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\"><em>by\u00a0Mary Marie Dixon<br \/>\n<\/em><\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt;font-family: georgia, palatino\">United States<\/span><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>(After Tennyson\u2019s \u2018The Dying Swan\u2019) In this wasting plain a Wedge of swans Tangle in water So deep her eyes In the gyring ferment I am impotent Warming blankets only burn The stab I cannot touch her I cannot reach her To this berth I cannot go She writhes White feathers Drop around her bed&hellip; 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