{"id":2470,"date":"2018-02-22T12:00:37","date_gmt":"2018-02-22T12:00:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/translatingpain\/?p=2470"},"modified":"2018-02-22T12:00:37","modified_gmt":"2018-02-22T12:00:37","slug":"hurting-haikus","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/hurting-haikus\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8216;Hurting Haikus&#8217;, by Vanessa"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"><strong><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" fetchpriority=\"high\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignright\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/wp.lancs.ac.uk\/a-bel-abroad\/files\/2018\/01\/IMG_20170809_113755047.jpg?resize=2268%2C4032\" alt=\"A photograph taken by someone seated at the top of a small hill, showing their legs at rest.\" width=\"2268\" height=\"4032\" \/><\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt\"><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino\">\u00a0Eight months of pain, guilt.<br \/>\nLosing my movement slowly,<br \/>\nAffecting my work.<\/span>Pain in my hip, back,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt\"> Encroaching on everything.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt\"> Physio: please help.<\/span><span style=\"font-size: 14pt\">Boss can&#8217;t understand,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt\"> Pretended it wasn&#8217;t bad.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt\"> I used to be fit.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt\">Practicing patience,<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt\"> Trying to be kind to self.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-size: 14pt\"> But some days that&#8217;s hard.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><br style=\"clear:both\" \/><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\"><em>by Vanessa<\/em><\/span><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\">[This image shows my legs in better times, when they were still able to take me on a 15 kilometre hike through the Rocky Mountains. Summer, 2017.]<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-family: georgia, palatino;font-size: 14pt\">Canada<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00a0Eight months of pain, guilt. Losing my movement slowly, Affecting my work.Pain in my hip, back, Encroaching on everything. Physio: please help.Boss can&#8217;t understand, Pretended it wasn&#8217;t bad. I used to be fit. Practicing patience, Trying to be kind to self. 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